MY pursuit of HAPPINESS

Another Again - John Legend

Another Again - John Legend

UPDATE: It's been a long time ... I've been thinking

What’s going on?

I noticed that I had not made a post in some time, however, I simply did not have anything to post about worth occupying the width of this 600px space.  I guess I may have been looking for something profound to philosophize about but in truth there is always a profunditiy in simplicity! While I have not been writing as often I have been living and that has been a tremendous stride in this process of personal happiness and understanding. Based on a number of conversations that have occured in a short amount of time my mind has been working diligently and my INSPIRATION for thought and philosophy has been jogged. A number of questions that proceed gave me the spark to push out answers that far exceeded my original thoughts on the subjects. However, they are breif for the sake of succint and understandble purposes - rambling is quite counter productive.

When was the last time you were in love? [Thank You SP!]

Before this question, I had not honestly thought about it as a particular date or time. I would come to find that in it’s position that the answer was right in front of me. It was three years ago today that the slip, trip, and fall began. We met, we ate, we wooed, we lived and who knew then the story would have been so bittersweet - ‘you’re gonna be the death of me, I don’t want you, but I need you … I love you and I hate you at the very same time’ -Kanye West. At that time I never thought I’d be doing it again, but the experience brought me back to the place that used to love to be.  If you’re falling anyway you may as well commit to it, no sense on being halfway involved in the matters of your own heart. I actually miss the profundity in “I’ve fallen and I can’t get up.” One thing for sure is falling’s always great until we find the abyss actually has an end. Yet and still we  must brush off and must move on. I’m moving … I don’t know if anyone’s going with me or if I may meet other travelers on the road, but I’m simply at peace knowing the journey isn’t over.

There’s no such thing as bad or good, right? [Thank you SD!]

Agreed. What is good or bad, happy or sad … but all in the desire to find peace within ourselves to be sure of what we hope for and believe in what we cannot see. I have grown SO MUCH in the last several months to understand and accept possibilities of being surprised, let down, anxious, unrested, delirious and all things having an equal opportunity of happening - a random statistical selection for my academics out there. It is as if I have gained the insight to experience things as a emotional person while controlling the extent to which it consumes me - that I accept the possible outcomes before they happen. I provides me serenity as not to be shaken from my foundation where, on the side of God, I reside and who’s plan surpasses the concept of which I once had my own.  I am simply thankful to know the power to feel at all and in that I accept what is my heart believes knowing neither joy or pain are permanent emotions - things inevitably must get worse before they get better. The existential truth, once accepted, delivers us from our sorrow to experience the great and most glorious works of our creator - life!